It's
okay to feel like you are destined to walk down the wrong side of the fork in
the road. Take the wrong side of the fork in the road. Walk down it with the
same fervent pace you would as if you were entirely certain that it was in fact
the right one. Buy a bottle of your least favorite liquor. Let it burn your
throat every time you feel too petrified to take another step. The vile taste
will force you to become less dependent on substances and eventually you will
accept how life feels in your present state. Your adventure is just beginning.
Remain sober for as long as you can. Entertain the idea of asking someone for
their story when there is nothing but silence surrounding you. Send an email to
an individual that you know could teach you something you are passionate about.
Don't go out of your way to be the most noticeable person in the room-- but
always take the opportunity to engage with your fellow humans. If you are
enticed by something so thoroughly that you forget to check your phone for over
an hour. Embrace it. Be consumed. Take heed of the sounds, visuals and feelings
that are produced by the entity that enamors you. Prioritize a fearless plunge
into the unknown over a meager nod to the most intimidating monster in the
room: self-doubt. Take a hatchet to the trappings in life everyone is guilty of
being restricted by at one point or another and don't stop chopping away until
you are weightless, unrefined, absolved.
Men
and women are wired differently. Yet both are capable of fiercely potent love. Compassion
speaks louder than hostility, obnoxiousness or selfishness-- do what you can to
make it the characteristic you are most commonly associated with. Reference
your favorite movies to the people that love it for the same reasons you do. Talk
about your fondest moments from five years ago. There is nothing incessant
about nostalgia. When you hear your favorite song being played in public don't
sing; bellow. Treat this moment like an opportunity to pin an enormous banner
across the largest wall in the world that simply reads: 'NO ONE CAN EVER TAKE
THIS AWAY FROM ME.'
Fire
a Roman Candle at the moon. Buy a giant sword and cut a watermelon in half.
Borrow your old man's knee-high socks that looks like they were manufactured
during the Regan era. Wear them with your newest pair of Vans. Let the blotchy
and somewhat tacky tones of white and grey cotton offset the pristine maroon
suede of the canvas. If anyone asks, tell them you wanted the best of both
worlds: comfort and comfort. Vacate your
mind of inconsequential disagreements you once had with the people you still
care about. Think about death, but only for a moment. Let your most prevalent,
most endearing ideas on all things in life oscillate in your heart like a
pendulum that is powered by your anticipation for the future and is immune to
despair. It will only be so once you allow yourself to thrive. So thrive as you
walk down the wrong side of the fork in the road. There's a roundabout less
than two days away. You're going to be just fine.
